What will become of your inside body?

Discussing what happens when you die on the car ride home from mums today. I ask, "what happens to your body when you die?"
Jensen: " well, your outside body just sits there."
Me: "what happens to your inside body? Is that what goes to Heaven to be an angel when God calls your name?"
Jensen : "the good ones do"
Me: what about the others?"
Jensen: "well, the inside body of the naughty people become Daleks"

Weaning.

Day 2 of no breast feeds. It's kinda sad. She didn't even ask today. I thought this was going to be harder than this. Kinda hoping it would be harder. My baby doesn't need me as much any more :'( so sad. We made 18 months though. It is where I wanted to end our journey, but now it's over, I just want to cry. What makes it worse is knowing there will probably not be baby #3 in the house. The other day was probably the very last breastfeed ever. Damnit- now I AM crying.

Weaning

So, the decision was made, and not lightly on my part, to wean Eden. Quite frankly, I would have been happy to keep going until she was ready to give up herself (like Jensen did at 15 months, cold turkey, when we moved house). As we're moving next month, I was hoping then she would give it up too.

I recently had uni prac. It finished last week, it went for 2 weeks. 1 week of AM shifts - starting at 6:30, then a week of PM shifts finishing at 11 (though the facilitator had us finishing at 9, so I was home  by 930 at the latest). I also had to work. I worked the weekend, then had the week of AM's. Then a weekend off, then the week of PM's and then the weekend on. Exhausting.

Anyway, so Eden didn't see me in the mornings, but I got to pick her up and take her home. She normally got an afternoon feed, then a bedtime one as well.  The afternoon one wasn't a big one, so more like a snack. The with the PM shifts, bedtime is 6pm, so she wasn't getting a breastfeed and she wont take a bottle, so Andrew just put her to bed with out anything. She adapted well. The weekend on she woke, so I'd give her a feed and be back to normal. But Monday came round and I thought, 'lets see if we can do this'. So, this week Monday and Tuesday night, Andrew has put her to bed by himself, without her having a breastfeed. I have also put a stop to the nap feed during the day. Wednesday night, I put her to bed without a breastfeed. She does ask, but I just say 'no'. She takes the answer ok, but the hand still goes down my top. Must be a comfort thing.  Day naps seemed to be the easiest to drop, perhaps because when she was at daycare for 2 weeks and just got used to it?

I'm not in a hurry to cut breakfast feeds, and it's not a big feed, just a snack, just for comfort.

It's sad that it's ending, but good for everyone, as she's able to go to sleep without me.

Now, let's see how this all goes when we move in 4-6 weeks! (And the move is a whole other blog post!)

Eden made it through today with a 2 min nap in the car all day. Wow. Surprisingly well behaved! Bed at 6 as normal :)

Got home from uni prac today to find my mother in law had cleaned, vacuumed and was in the process of mopping my floors! Wow! Thank you! You rock! Love you!

Eden's first day at daycare!

While Eden went to family daycare with the lady in our street last semester when I was in prac, it was more like spending the day with the neighbour than daycare.

Proper daycare started yesterday. As I start at 8 yesterday (and 7am every morning for the rest if the first week, 2:30pm the following week), Andrew us taking her (and Jensen on his Kindy off days) to daycare near his work. She had a big cry when Andrew left on
Monday. He text me saying she hated him for leaving her there. I forgot to pack sheets for nap time, so Nanna dropped them off. Tears again, but quickly distracted by the playground. When I picked her up, she heard then saw my car and them she had a huge grin that lit up her whole face! "mumma!"

Today, tears again, but apparently calmed down when she found she had pens and paper!

On prac at the moment, after deciding to go part time with uni, the facilitator is nice, but talks to much - about nursing stuff and whatever else. Yesterday I swear I got an hour on the ward because we had heaps of pre-briefs and mini tutes and sat in on a in service (staff training).

Today, I got sent on  morning tea for 15-30 min. The facilitator ended up sitting with us and my 30 mins turned into 60 mins coz she turned what was supposed to be a break into a tute. I learnt things, sure, but that was my break!

Then when I got back to the ward, she had me finding dressings for a wound that was on another student's patient and reading up on why to use that one. Then she disagreed with the RN looking after that patient on what dressing should be applied. The patient was still in the shower, and was the RN's lunch break, so we were to go on ours. I swear I'd been back on the ward an hour. Our lunch break I think went for at least an hour again, then went upstairs, dressed this patients wound, wrote in notes and then got to watch a dressing put on. When that was done, it was time to meet her for a debrief of the day.... Which was what, exactly? I was hardly there. Tomorrow she wants to be with me on a med round, but hopefully then she goes and pesters the other students instead. I'd like a break on my break!