I think I'm finally starting to stress. There's about 3-ish weeks before there's a new addition!! My conscious mind obviously hasn't grasped it yet, but I think subconsciously it has. I know I need to spend more time one-on-one with Jensen, coz it's going to be a very rude shock for us all, particularly Jensen.

Oh gosh. I so never want to do that again...

Jensen has been bouncing off the walls since I picked him up from daycare at 4. Litterally. He was even throwing his 20c peice he found Into the air where it very nearly got picked up by the ceiling fan.

By the time Andrew got home at 730, I was over it. I was tired, hot, cranky, stressed (from today - whole other post!, and about tomorrows baby shower) and over it. All I wanted him to do (and by this time it was 8 something - past bedtime - was go and lie down on *my* bed. He kept pushing the door to come into the en suite (where Andrew is having a shower and trying to tell me something) and making a game of it. I snapped and opened the door, put him outside and told him- yelled at him- to get on the bed coz he'd been pising me off for hours. I must have never used that voice before coz he looked absolutely frightened and tears streamed down his face. Seeing him like that made me a bigger mess than he was and I spent the next 5 mins in tears and holding and cuddling him. "mummy is so sorry." "I'm so sorry too mummy" broke my heart even more.

By the time Andrew finished his shower, I had started to explain to Jensen why mummy snapped and that in the next 3 weeks thing are going to get busy. Very busy. And I need him to be an awesome big brother... Coz theres going to be a baby crying, and more than likely mummy crying, and that he'll have to look after mummy... He did cheer up when he heard he was going to have to look after me :)

But when I yelled at him, oh, I felt like one of those abusive parents... I never want to feel this way again. It's terrible! How can parents treat children like that on a regular basis?!?

Jensen found 20 cents this morning. He put in his pajama pocket. Later, he wanted to play a game on my phone. He told me he has 20 cents to give me if he can play a game! Lol resorting to bribery already!


We were just reading a book about space and the solar system. He got up off the couch, took the book with him to "check if it was the same" as his solar system in his room. Too cute!!

Everyone sing with Jensen...
"Mummy's little baby loves short and short and. Mummy's little baby loves short and red!"

"Thomas and Percy happily tooted their best friends whistle"

Nice kids show.

So, Monday was valentines day... Tuesday was my birthday!!

My mum had called me to say happy birthday, and that she couldn't make it down to see me, but she would on Wednesday. She has to drop the little girl she looks after at school, she'll pick up Lea and kids, drop the kids off at daycare and meet me at a little coffee shop near me that also does high tea. 1030 she says.

So I spend all day on my birthday alone (Andrew at work and Jensen at Daycare) hanging out to go to this coffee shop in the morning. Mum rings me back just before I have to pick Jensen up and says, can you meet us at the shopping centre (30mins from where I live) just after 10 and we'll look for things for the baby shower.

We were going to do this after going to the coffee shop near me anyway. Apparently it's easier for them when they have to leave. Lea has to pick up her kids at 230, mums gotta pick up the little girl at 3. Fair enough, it's gonna take them
30mins to get where they're going once they leave here...


Sounds silly now, but I was really upset. Not only did they not see me on my birthday (we're coming down on wednesday, not driving all that way twice), the ONE thing I wanted tondo for my birthday, it's "too far".

Andrew says he'll take me there, though :)

And just a side point, just after 10 is not 1030... 1030 is 1030. I could make it here on time...

Happy Valentines Day!!

It's 5:30 in the evening, and Jensen asks, "Mummy, can we have a cup of tea?"
Awww. Of course you can!

This house must be a giant-spider magnet!

There was that BIG one that was living in my en suite in November (or whenever), that Ben and Andrew assisted to the back garden. Then there was a smaller one, which I think was sprayed.

Then on Tuesday, there was one hanging around in the lounge room. Last night Andrew found it in our bedroom. Fine... He tried to scare it out. It disappeared. Ok. I got up at 1:30am, covered in sweat (coz Andrew is sick, the en suite door was shut, window shut, fans off - really hot)! I hopped into the shower, and as I slid the door shut , there's the giant (and I mean giant) spider - on the INSIDE of the shower with me!!

Holy moly. It was massive. Honest to God, no word of a lie, it's fangs were at least 1cm. Doesn't sound like much, 1cm.. But on a spider- huge!

As I was having a cold only shower, it was so cold it took my breath away, and each time that happened I closed my eyes! I was freaked out by that spider. I switched it off and bravely opened the door and got out of there, and had a shower in the other bathroom.

I have absolutely no idea where that spider is now!

Oh wow! So proud of Jensen!! Normally when you wash his hair, there's high pitched full-lung screaming. Apparently clean hair is pure torture for my son. You'd hear him a few doors down!

However, tonight, nothing !! There was a small whimper coz there was suds in his eyes, but you wouldn't have known outside his bathroom!

Big thank you Jensen! You're growing up too fast!!

SMASH!

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