It's like they're not working. It used to be 10-20 min max and that's it, lights out for me.
Now I'm up for hours after taking them.
It's changing my behaviour. I'm so freaking ANGRY.
Tonight I let loose at my 2year old. I screamed at her. I mean screamed. Disturbingly scary even for myself to hear it. Almost like I couldn't stop it, just listen on the screaming coming from me.
All I wanted was for her to lie down on her movie night mat while I bushed my teeth and took my meds.
I has already had a melt down in the afternoon. I was trying to talk about Christmas presents, d the kids just would-not-stop talking. It was overwhelming and too much and I had to remove myself and cry alone. I had to tell J no not now as I shut the door, which distressed him and he went to cry.